I’ll wake up, I’ll go to work, I’ll come home, I’ll go to bed and I’ll do it all over again the next day and the next and the next….
I do not want to go on living. I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up again ….ever.
I wish I’d never been born. I wish God would not make me live anymore.
These are comments from people who are adults functioning around and among us every day in this world. These are not people that you would recognize as depressed or in despair. Yet the weight of the pain and wounds of abortion and sexual abuse have led them to this existence. Because they have believed the deception of the enemy that they have no worth, no value and no purpose, they exist and walk and work among us but they do not truly live. They are the walking dead.
Jesus said “the thief comes ONLY to steal and kill and destroy”. The enemy has a very focused purpose and pulls no punches in his relentless pursuit of our destruction. That thief has stolen much from the life of those who have believed his lie about abortion and from those who have been victims of sexual abuse. He’s stolen their hope, their dreams, their very life. His ultimate intention is to absolutely kill and utterly destroy – either through the sinful actions of others or through the deception by which he entices us to sin.
Jesus also said “I came that they might have life and might have it abundantly”. That word might does not for a moment imply that God hasn’t quite made up HIS mind about it! It has more to do with our choice, our desire to seek and to follow Him. Our Risen Christ has a very focused purpose for our lives as well! None of His plans for our life have included trudging through another day or wishing we’d never have to face another day! Because Jesus defeated death and the grave we have HOPE that we can truly live and live abundantly.
When we think of living we often immediately think of breathing, functioning, moving. But just waking up and breathing another day is NOT living. The life that Jesus was talking about was far more than just waking up and going through the motions. That word abundantly involves a life of superior quality, beyond measure, and completeness! That is the life that Christ came, died and rose from the dead to give us – a life of superior quality that is complete and beyond measure!!
That is the very life that so many women who have come to Sisters in Christ have not experienced. Yet on a Journey to Grace these women have found that life and are really living it – often for the first time! Those whom God has led to Sisters have at one time been content to live out their days as the walking dead because they have become convinced that there isn’t anything more or better for them. The enemy has deceived them and they have believed that they deserve nothing more than waking up and breathing another day. But on the Journey, Jesus has shown Himself faithful time after time and has brought life – real life – and brought it as only He can – beyond measure and of superior quality!!
